I Did Not Become Confident. I Just Started Recording Videos
For a long time, I thought that before making videos I first had to become confident. Speak well. Not get confused. Not feel awkward. Not be surprised by my own voice. Not forget what I wanted to say. And then I understood: if I wait for that state, I may never start.
I Did Not Become Confident. I Just Started Recording Videos
I did not wake up one morning as a person who finds it easy to press record and speak on video. I did not suddenly become super calm, I did not stop worrying, and I did not suddenly start speaking perfectly in front of my phone. At some point, I simply understood: either I start now, or I keep postponing myself again.
This article is about how I started recording videos not because I became confident, but because I no longer wanted to postpone it. About the fear of filming myself, awkwardness, my own voice on video, the teleprompter, first mistakes and the desire not to hide only behind texts.
For many years, I worked with texts, websites, SEO, content and promotion.
There, everything is more or less clear. You sit down. Write. Rewrite. Correct. Publish.
A text can be read again. You can delete a sentence. You can replace a word. You can think ten times before showing something to people.
Video is different.
People see you there. They hear your voice. They notice your pauses. They see when you are nervous. They see when you are searching for words.
That is exactly why I postponed it for a long time.
I Thought I First Had to Be Ready
It seemed to me that before I started recording videos, I had to prepare somehow.
Speak more confidently. Look better. Know the exact text. Not lose my words. Not worry. Not think about what people would say.
But this is a trap.
Because you can wait for years for the moment when you finally feel ready.
And then it may turn out that this moment never came.
You simply got used to waiting.
And the longer you wait, the scarier it becomes to start.
What Was Stopping Me
- The fear of looking awkward
- The thought that I do not speak perfectly
- Nervousness in front of the phone
- Doubts about whether anyone would find it interesting
- The wish to “prepare better” first
- The fear of other people’s opinions
Video Shows Very Quickly Where You Are Hiding
When you write a text, you can spend a long time choosing words and hide behind nice phrasing.
When you press record and speak, it is harder to hide.
At first, it feels a little uncomfortable.
Because suddenly you hear yourself from the outside. You see how you speak. You notice pauses. You catch yourself thinking: “No, something feels wrong.”
But this is also useful.
Because video does not let you pretend for long that you already know how to do everything.
It honestly shows: here you are nervous, here you are rushing, here you are speaking too complicated, here you do not sound like yourself.
At First, It Is Strange to Hear Your Own Voice Too
Listening to your own voice on video is a separate story.
I think many people know this feeling. You record a video, play it back, and the first thought is: is that really how I sound?
At first, it really feels unusual.
You do not like your voice. You do not like the pauses. It feels like you are speaking somehow wrong.
But then, little by little, you get used to it.
You start hearing not only the voice, but also the thought you wanted to share. And then it becomes easier.
Sometimes I Use a Teleprompter
I do not always speak completely from my head.
Sometimes I prepare a text and use a teleprompter, because I can forget what I wanted to say, lose the thread, or go in a different direction with my thoughts.
For me, this is not about trying to look perfect.
It is simply a way not to lose the main idea.
But even when I have a prepared text, I still want to speak normally, in my own words, so it sounds alive, not like reading someone else’s script.
I Started Not Because I Stopped Being Afraid
This is an important point.
I did not suddenly become confident.
I did not stop thinking about how it looks.
I did not stop worrying whether I said it normally, whether it was too long, too simple, or somehow strange.
I just started.
Because I understood one simple thing: confidence does not come before the start.
It comes after the first attempts.
Sometimes imperfect. Sometimes awkward. But your own.
I Do Not Want to Play the Role of an Expert With a Perfect Life
On social media, many people look as if they always know what they are doing.
Everything is confident. Everything is beautiful. Everything is correct. As if the person had planned it all long ago.
It is not like that for me.
I am learning. Trying. Recording again. Looking at myself and thinking: “Well, it could have been better.”
But that is a normal process.
I do not want to pretend that I already know everything.
I prefer to show how I am really learning to speak, explain, share thoughts and not hide behind silence.
Video Makes You Speak More Simply
I felt this very clearly.
In a text, you can write a long sentence. You can build a nice structure. You can sound smoother than you speak in real life.
But when you press record, everything extra starts getting in the way.
Complicated phrases do not sound natural. Learned words feel foreign. Beautiful sentences suddenly become stiff.
Then only one thing is left: speak normally.
The way you would explain it to a person next to you.
Do not act. Do not twist yourself. Do not decorate too much. Just say the thought in human words.
It Is Important for Me Not to Lose Myself in This Process
I do not want my videos to look like a memorized advertising text.
I do not want to speak with someone else’s words.
I do not want to pretend that everything is perfect if I am still only learning myself.
It is important for me that I am still myself in this.
With my words. With my pace. With my experience. With my pauses. Even with nervousness.
Because people feel very quickly when you are not speaking from yourself.
Why I Started Anyway
Because I understood that now I have something to talk about.
About life in Norway. About family. About adaptation. About health. About tiredness. About how energy slowly comes back. About business without spam. About trying something new when you are no longer twenty.
And if I constantly wait until I can say it perfectly, I will simply say nothing.
And I no longer want to stay silent.
Not because I have some “big truth”.
But because my experience may speak to someone.
The First Videos Are Not About Quality, but About Allowing Yourself to Start
Of course, you want everything to be good.
Normal sound. Normal light. A clear thought. Not too long. Not boring. So the person watches until the end.
But at the very beginning, there is a more important task.
Allow yourself to be imperfect.
Allow yourself to learn in the process.
Allow yourself not to wait until someone says: “Now you are ready.”
Because nobody will say that.
At some point, you have to press record yourself.
I Do Not Want the Fear of Other People’s Opinions to Control My Life
This is probably one of the main reasons.
Because honestly, often it is not the phone that stops us.
The thought stops us: “What will people say?”
Someone may laugh. Someone may not understand. Someone may think it is strange. Someone may think it would have been better to stay silent.
But if you adjust your whole life to that, you can quietly live a life that is not really yours.
I do not want that.
I would rather learn, make mistakes, correct myself and move, than sit in silence again and think: someday I will start.
I Want to Speak to People More Simply
Without playing an ideal picture.
Without the role of a person who understood everything long ago.
Without strange promises.
Another option is closer to me.
Speak as it is.
What I try. What I learn. What works for me. What still does not work. Where I worry. Where I make mistakes. Where I see results.
Maybe this is my normal strength.
Not perfection. A living path.
What I Understood After the First Attempts
Video does not become easy immediately.
But each next one is not as scary as the first.
You start hearing yourself better.
You begin to understand where you speak too complicated.
You begin to see that people do not always need a perfect presentation.
Often they need a normal person who speaks like a human being.
And that feels close to me.
So I Will Just Continue
Not because I have already become confident.
Not because everything is perfect.
Not because I no longer worry.
But because I have already started.
And now it is important for me not to stop just because the first steps do not look the way I wanted them to.
Confidence, maybe, appears exactly like that.
Not before the start.
But after you have done a few times what you were afraid of.
I Did Not Become Confident. I Just Started
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